Mirror Mirror on the Wall

Through the years, I have worked on self-esteem issues. To be able to appreciate and love myself fully including my physical self. 

Last week, my friend Kar Leong and I met up to do a short video for our I am a Smile Catalyst project. Surprisingly, I was quite uncomfortable throughout the whole process. It was just 2 plus minutes but it sure felt like a long time. 

After that, I started to process it through and I realised it was not the filming that made me uncomfortable but looking at my 'crooked face'. 

When I was 9 years old, the right side of my face was paralysed. Doctors suspected a burst vessel. I had to go for light therapy sessions once a week for about a year (if I am not mistaken) and for some time, was very conscious that my face was crooked. 


After I learnt energy healing, I started to send healing to my face. Over time, it has become more aligned. Except on video, it is more obvious. Or perhaps, it is obvious when I speak to others but I only get to see myself on video so that affects me.

When my cousin (who helped us with the video) emailed it to me, I cringed when I first watched it and was tempted not to post it up. BUT this project is larger than my insecurities and vanity. And this is also a good opportunity for me to let go of this not-useful hang up about my 'crooked face'. The paralysis is an event that happened and I cannot change it. Instead, I am blessed to have overcome it and that is definitely more important than a little misalignment. 

I have watched the video a couple more times and definitely, am focused on the happy message rather than on me. enJOY it!